I hear she was the vice chancellor at UCT. Her name is Mamphela Rampele. Bold, tenacious, sensible woman was the impression I got. Then there was Desmond Tutu – a character and a half. Yesterday was the Public Conversation event: Journeys through Trauma after the TRC in South Africa featuring: Maria Ntuli and Lizzie Sefolo, Anne-Marie McGregor (Mother of SADF ex-soldier killed in Namibia), Pauline Nossel (Survivor of Johannesburg Hijacking).
It’s never crossed my mind, but when I saw Anne-Marie McGregor sitting at the front I realised, for the first or second time, that some white people had tasted the venom of our past in its full bitterness. At first I couldn’t allow myself to hear her story, but as she spoke of her pain and raised a picture of her fallen son, I suddenly empathized and realised her story was legitimate. The problems surrounding being given a platform to tell your traumatic story are the constraints of the actual narrative. Traumatic stories of this nature, spanning 16 to 30 years, cannot be retold in 5 minutes or under strict guidance. The narrative is restrained. And as I, earlier in the day, sat through Molly Andrews’ session on narrative – it dawned on me as to why my grandmother wasn’t terribly excitable and satisfied with the TRC – she never told her story in its full context and capacity.
Under the interrogation of Dumisa Ntsebeza, my gran, was restricted to answering his preloaded questions. Here’s the transcript. Issues of narrative are wide and ranging, but I’ll limit this to explaining that every story has a beginning, middle and end. But the TRC was too limited in its (constrained) narrative. If the purpose was to achieve healing through speaking, than I’m afraid they failed.
Back to the Public Conversation. As fate would have it, I was sitting next to a professional shrink as we were later requested to discuss the conversations we’d just heard with the people next to us. She (the shrink) told me Lizzie and Maria, through their constrained narratives, seemed to have found forgiveness – I refuted that statement in such a manner that this shrink probably thought I was going looney. But that’s a story for another day.
Tracking back a bit, Pauline Nossel, the hijack survivor, explicitly told a story that further reiterated my recent meanderings on how the past pans out and is ever-used as a means of justifying criminal behaviours in the now-generation. Her hijackers we’re trying to get rid of the tracker in her vehicle and they couldn’t let go of her and her husband until the tracker was removed. So they had to drive around with the hijackers, in another car, in which she got to know her hijackers better as they bought her bottled water and comforted her on her vehicle loss. These hijackers further explained to her that they were not aware they were an old-aged couple and that this was just a means to an end – they had to put food on their tables too. When the tracker was found, Pauline and her husband were dropped-off a few metre from their complex and told to refrain from looking back.
Maybe, and only maybe, we are nearing the end of crime. A few years ago criminals were voiceless, emotionless, fearless and faceless elements of society.
A sad reality dawned as Maria Ntuli spoke. She gave a brief testimony of her experience and then raised the issue of the TRC having not met all of its promises, in terms of reparations. Ntuli also raised the issue of the many others who were excluded by the TRC and whether or not round two of the TRC was in sight. Mamphele Ramphele put the cherry on top of these points as she further criticised government’s stance on the TRC reparations: “…We did not go into the struggle for rewards…” Government must have been high on something, especially when we look at where they’re sitting presently, the cars they drive and their Arms Deals. No rewards?
As Ramphele spoke of the necessities of greater rewards, especially in terms of enhancing the economic standings of the victimized and previously disadvantaged, it slowly dawned on me that the TRC had once again faltered – it gave hope and made promises to people who had lost hope. That in itself had to be the cruelest action - to give hope.
The TRC did however open the doors of narrative and possibilities of healing through telling – now they need to follow this up and expand these narratives, through various forms of the media. There are people who have stories to tell – let them narrate.